I have read that daydreaming about sex helps reduce stress caused from not getting any. I am not sure if that is true but any who…
Work has been stressful and non-stop… full of dicks, assholes, tattle tales, micromanagers, whiners, hiring new people, working with unmotivated contractors, unfilled customer orders, quality issues, workman’s comp junkies and people who seem to not appreciate having a good paying job in this economy.
Since the marathon training and marathon, I have found ways to deal with all of that professionally and calmly….for the most part. I didn’t plan it that way but I just recently noticed that I am handling those things better. Even some co-workers have noticed that also. I attribute that to running and exercise.
Now, this is not New England, Minnesota or the like but Missouri has cold and snowy weather also.
I consider myself a hard-core runner because I will run in rain, humidity, cold or snowy conditions. I will not attempt icy conditions. I did a few times and paid an embarrassing and painful price.
My point is, I am not getting the fulfilling runs that I love from running outside. Its dark when I leave for work and when I get home. Many times lately there is ice on the sidewalks so that is out.
I have had to resort to the treadmill during the week and hit the roads and trails on the weekend. I am doing some indoor cross-training such as spinning, kettlebells and the boxing bag.
And this morning, a chain of events started unraveling that made me feel that “old high-strung” Charlotte coming back. It was hard to keep my cool. The 3rd shift supervisor (who is obese and always sick) called in sick and left his shift in the hands of someone who could not handle it and a mess was staring me in the face at 6:15am today. I had to shut my door for a moment just to compose.
Not to mention that I had an emotional breakdown before I left my home 40 miles away from my work when I thought Eli had gotten out of our backyard fence and run away. I let him and Peyton out to potty before I left. They both are usually ready to come back in by the time I finish brushing my teeth. But Eli was no-where to be found. I was crying, yelling for him and outside in my bare feet trying to find him. I even woke Kevin up hysterical asking for him to help me find him. Then, up popped that big brown head in the backdoor. He has taken an interest in a chicken coop in our neighbors backyard. I over-reacted but I felt like a mama loosing her kid in a mall. Yeah…I’m nuts, I know.
I should have brought running clothes to work today because it is sunny and unseasonably warm today but I did not do that. It’s a hassle to run during lunch, clean up and re-dress so I just don’t. I really need to re-think that whole thing.
So, I have been surfing running websites today and found a way to relieve my stress. I love reading about running. I love motivational and informative blogs. Even Pinterest “running” pins have actually calmed me down and put me in a happy, calmer place.
So today…every few minutes I get alone in my office….will be spent reading about other people running!
“All I do is keep on running in my own cozy, homemade void, my own nostalgic silence. And this is a pretty wonderful thing. No matter what anybody else says.” ― Haruki Murakami, What I Talk About When I Talk About Running